What I know

I’ve always said, “If only knew what I don’t know, then I could learn it.”

As an intuitive empath, I receive intuitive downloads as a matter of course. Explaining what I learn to the people around me…well, that’s a different matter.

I recently wrote a poem about it.

What I know

What I know could fill a library, could I only write it down.

Knowing, after all, is out of style.
“You can’t know,” he insisted.
Lumps rose and faces fell. 
We dispersed and some forgot, but the walls remember well.

Etched in pastel cinderblocks, You can’t know!
Brindled laminate echoes, You can’t know!
Creaking, cracking, screeching, You can’t know! You can’t know!
Cogito ergo sum, but to know is to be an ignorant buffoon!

Quick! Wake up and bury your head,
Before they come to bury your dead!
Justify your answer, support your claims,
Show your work, or burn!
Defend your position, anticipate opposition,
Produce the facts, or die!

Quick! Burn them on stakes, spit them online, 
Roast them on stage, spear them on the silver screen, 
Hang them at the crossroads of Zuckerburg and me! 
All Hail, Holy Science! Praise Almighty Skepticism!
Raise a hymn together, neither a believer nor a knower be! 
We sing to Thee, Empiricism, and we honor Thee, Descartes!
Pass around the offering plate, the mite goes in the cup!

“You can’t know,” he insisted.
Lumps rose and faces fell. 
We dispersed and some forgot, but I remember well.

What I know would fill a library, 
Except I don’t know how I know it. 
So I keep it to myself.

Word-healing (Or, why meditation can be hard)

Don’t get me wrong. I love guided meditations.

Sometimes, though, I want the benefits of sound therapy without the effort of focusing.

When I started meditating regularly, it was painfully hard to focus. My brain was just not really into it.

Now, after years of patiently wheedling my brain into Zen, I can do it pretty easily. Still, sometimes I just want some “ear candy.”

Sure, it helps to have a guru telling you what to do, but occasionally I just want something nice to listen to.

Ho’oponopono meditations are some of my favorites because they use the high vibrational frequencies of four powerful truths: “I’m sorry,” “please forgive me,” “I love you, “I thank you.” Sometimes instead of focusing carefully on the cleansing power of the words…I just…listen.

Instead of trying eagerly to meditate “correctly” by really digging deep into what the track is saying, sometimes it’s important to just relax and allow the spoken word of truth to heal the nooks and crannies of the psyche.

Truth, I have found, is the antidote for untruth.

My new meditation series utilizes sound therapy practices coupled with some of the most beautiful truths written by humankind. I’m plumbing the depths of history for the highest vibrational writing humans have ever produced.

I’m tossing some theta waves on there for good measure.

Meditations on Truth is my new meditation series and you can listen to the first one through the YouTube link on the right!

Timeline Healing: Forgiving Your Ancestors

Timeline healing is the only way to truly let go of what no longer serves us. I healed my timeline with Reiki.

Each of us carry wounds, misapprehensions, and patterns of struggle leftover from our childhoods, parents, and all ancestral generations back to the dawn of time.

Mine have been giving me issues lately.

In my efforts to heal, grow, and attract what I want in life, I kept finding myself bumping up against the same old walls:

"Don't stand out"
"Don't speak up"
"That's too frivolous"
"Just try harder"
A cleansing mountain stream hidden in the grasses

You know the drill. Our inner patterns are responsible for everything in our reality. Sometimes this is a good thing. Other times…not so much.

Our ancestors never intended to bequeath us the legacy of struggle. To them, that was how life was. Previous generations faced hunger, disease, and hardship in ways we cannot even begin to imagine.

Human biology adapted us to attacks by saber-tooth tigers, but has yet to catch up with our mind-numbing daily grind. We’re unprepared for the complexities of social media, politics, environmental malaise of today.

More seriously, we literally carry the anger, fear, sadness, struggle, lack, resentment, traditions, beliefs, and other patterns that do us no good.

Obviously, we need a solution

Finally, I felt inspired to use Reiki with the special intention of clearing whatever no longer serves me in my personal timeline; starting with the earliest glimmer of human history, up through my ancestors, into my gestation and childhood, through my lifetime and into my future progeny, I cleared it all.

I’ll admit that some of the chakras were harder to clear than others. Some of them had quite the load of emotional baggage in there.

I stuck it out, though, starting at the crown chakra and ending up at the root. Then I used Reiki in the room around me, which felt extra full of gunk (more than usual, in fact).

I felt such a release.

Almost immediately, things began aligning that I had been yearning to change. Where I had felt resistance, there was fluidity; where there had been fear, there was strength.

I previously got good results with ho’oponopono meditations before tryiing a timeline healing with Reiki. Now, though, I will be using Reiki to clear timelines regularly — both my own and my clients’. If you have a meditation, Reiki, or sound healing practice, try using the special intention of timeline healing and see if it makes a difference. I’d love to hear your experience!

I accidentally…wrote a song?

I just started going to therapy. I mostly went to deal with a violent trauma that happened to me in college, but I am realizing something: as an empath, I am traumatized by life.

That might sound dramatic, but let me try to explain.

Every sad news story, every angry person in the street, every stressed co-worker, every rando that yawns on their way to work…their energy gets tangled up with mine and I end up literally ill. It’s not something I can “turn off,” either. It’s part of me.

I’m learning to see empathy as a blessing, rather than a curse, but it’s been a long, slow, messy process.

My new therapist, helpfully, always asks, “what feeling is coming up for you right now?” And I can barely answer. I usually just say, “sadness,” or, “I’m frustrated,” but it’s not even close.

More accurately, I am overflowing with thousands of tangled up emotions, mine, yours, everyone’s, churning incessantly, and whirling so fast I can’t even grasp at one enough to describe it properly.

I left my last session achey, fatigued and eager to cry. After our rough first session, I had literally scheduled my day with time to go home and have a meltdown afterward.

So I went home, got out my cozy blankets and journal and tissues and snacks, ready to have an absolute panic attack. I felt the emotions rising, and I knew I needed to let them out in order to heal.

Soap Bubbles

Suddenly, I couldn’t cry.

And I realized that my own emotions were buried so deep beneath a layer of other people’s feelings, beliefs, and energies that I couldn’t even cry when I wanted.

(Trust me, I do cry sometimes. But I don’t cry as much as is probably healthy).

And then, the oddest thing happened: I wrote a song.

Let me be clear: I have never written a song in my life. I had no inkling beforehand that I ever wanted to write a song the rest of my days.

All of a sudden, though, this song was in my head. I grabbed my ukulele and the Notes app on my phone and wrote it down. And as I sang, hey, presto – waterworks.

I sobbed and sobbed, and the odd teardrop landed on the strings, all dramatic and emotional, just like in the movies. Yep, that was me. A stereotype.

It was such a release.

What we learn from this:

For one, music is energy, just like everything else. It’s what I needed to release whatever societal blocks were keeping me from crying. The energy of the music let me say something that I couldn’t express through words alone. For you, maybe that something is running, or dancing, or sewing, or cooking or throwing darts at the wall. I typically write in my journal. We all need energetic releases from time to time.

I happen to be an empath, so when I get blocked it’s obvious. If you get blocked, it might be rumbling under the surface for years without you knowing. And believe me, all humans get blocked from time to time. If you aren’t expressing your thoughts, ideas, feelings, and needs on a regular basis, find a way to do so ASAP.

Secondly, the song I wrote was actually less about trauma and more about the experience of being human. It came out of something my mom said the other day about empaths being like a sponge, ready to be wrung out.

The song teaches that while trauma is hard, there is something harder: living your whole life misunderstood, inauthentic, undervalued. Well, you don’t have to be an empath to understand that. No matter who you are, your needs matter. If you are struggling with being your true self, do whatever it takes to stop. You are utterly unique, infinitely valuable and never a burden.

This song is for you.

Let me remind you: I am not a song writer. This is my first song ever, but it has already served its purpose for me. It came from the Universe through me and straight to you.

The chords and lyrics are here so you can play it if you want.

Why “love” is our best Reiki symbol

In my Reiki practice, I find myself drawing lots of hearts on people — I know, I know, it’s not a traditional Reiki symbol.

Even before I was certified in Reiki II (which is when you learn the symbols) I used hearts in my practice. Lest you think I’m being silly and cliche, I’ll explain.

Love is a universal healing power. It’s what ultimately binds us together. Love supports life, healing, and growth. Love created us, it nurtures us as we grow and keeps us going. It cleanses hurts and removes trouble.

In my culture, the ♡ symbol represents love — usually romantic love, but not always. While this is not universally true (and in many places it’s been highly commercialized), the powerful force of love as a healer still shines through.

Symbols have immense power, both literally and figuratively. Everything is symbolic in its own way, and symbols can help us understand, re-frame, or explain a situation.

Sometimes when I’m feeling tension or anger in a group of people, I will silently “send love” in my mind to the person who seems to be feeling the most strain, or appears to be causing the issue. I also imagine a stream of ♡ emojis flowing from my heart to theirs. I usually find that the situation de-escalates, even if only in my own perspective. By sending love out to the Universe, the Universe sends it back.

While the Reiki symbols have immense strength and power (and I in no way want to diminish that), heart symbols are an easy, quick way for everyone, at any stage of their life path, to send a little love out into the Universe. You will always get some love back.

And if in your culture the ♡ means something else or isn’t really used, try another symbol. Symbols have power.

What symbol works for you? I’d love to hear your input in the comments ♡

Energetic Nutrition: Why popcorn is so addicting

As I start my second bowl of popcorn today, I’m thinking about why it’s my second-favorite food. Medical experts disagree about whether popcorn is great for you or terrible for you, but I don’t care. I’m thinking about it in terms of energy healing.

Since my Reiki certification, I’ve been in tune with the energy signature of my food. Popcorn has always been addicting for me — when I start, I can’t stop.

This could be because it’s a low-calorie carb with lots of salt and butter, yes. But also, popcorn is a seed. Seeds contain the energy of life.

Take an apple seed and split it in half. Put the two halves, pointed ends together, on a white background under a bright light (a piece of paper under a lamp will do) and try to see it’s aura. See that blue haze in a figure-8 shape? That’s the seed’s energy field. In that tiny seed is the power to grow an entire tree, millions of leaves and countless apples. All this from one seed.

Nuts and seeds are considered to be some of the healthiest superfoods, and I now see why. The strength of these tiny powerhouses hold the planet together. Without seeds, none of us would survive.

It’s amazing what small things can do, isn’t it?

The next time you eat something, think carefully about its energy. Is it giving you life? Or diminishing it? Raw, whole foods have higher vibrations than processed ones. Your body will thank you for eating cleaner.

And the next time you eat popcorn, give thanks for the life force that binds us all.

A Good Offense: Peace, Love, and Joy

They say the best defense is a good offense. As an empath, other people’s negativity, angst, and low vibes affect me in a bad way. Sometimes, I get literally sick (lately, it’s been splitting headaches for seemingly no reason).

Around the holidays, this can be a particularly big problem. I want to enjoy myself around friends and family, but being around other people usually means trying to pretend I’m not dying on the inside while helping others to have a good time, too.

One technique I’ve been practicing is to radiate peace, love and joy when others are around. I literally imagine myself as the center of a golden force field that expands and engulfs anyone else in my proximity. It really works. This morning I cleared a headache with it.

The important thing to remember is that other people don’t know they’re causing my illness. They’re just living their normal lives, and bad vibes are clinging to them and probably causing their own issues, too. Without knowing it, they probably have mental, emotional, physical, or spiritual problems caused by their bad energy – and they might be blissfully unaware.

If your holiday gatherings tend to be tense and overwhelming, try this and see if it makes a difference. It takes a little practice, but soon you can do it with ease. Let me know in the comments how it works for you!

Step by step instructions:

  • Become aware of your internal state
  • Imagine your aura as a bubble of light around you
  • Imagine your aura as a clean, positive color (white, silver, golden, or whatever feels good to you)
  • Mentally expand that bubble so it fills the room you are in (you can go further if you want, to the building or the city or as far as you need)
  • Imagine that light encompassing everyone in it, bathing them in peace, love and joy for their highest and best good
  • Sustain as long as needed
  • Repeat as necessary

Why I thank my body

Gratitude is a buzzword right now. Actually, research shows that thankfulness can work wonders for your mental health (Can Giving Thanks Help Us Heal From Trauma?).  

When times are tough, though, I struggle to feel thankful. I have a lot to be grateful for, but when everything hurts and I’m too exhausted to move…it’s not exactly easy to be happy.

“I am now thanking my body for all it does for me.”

Affirmation for thankfulness

So, I started thanking every single body part before going to sleep.

That’s right, I start with my toes and mentally say, “thank you, toes. You keep me from falling over,” “thank you, feet. You let me walk to the fridge,” “thank you, ankles…” and so on and so on, until I get to my head. If I’m still awake at that point, I start again. Repeat ‘til unconscious.

Louise Hay writes in You Can Heal Your Life about the ways we abuse our bodies. We think we’re not thin enough, not muscular enough, not tan enough, not attractive enough…I could go on.

The way we talk to our bodies has a direct and real impact on our health.

I’ll say it again: verbally abusing yourself is making you sick.

Your heart pumps faithfully to keep you alive; your lungs never cease to supply oxygen. We judge ourselves based on arbitrary external standards, but the inside is literally what counts. (Yes, that’s a hackneyed cliche, but tell that to your arteries. See if they agree).

When your doctor takes your blood pressure, the numbers reflect your internal state. Your internal organs couldn’t care less what clothes are fashionable this year or what body shape is attractive this century. You are an infinite being with limitless potential, and you simply do not have time to fret over petty human rules about being superficially “enough.”

For just a moment, think about the beauty of practicality. Think about how glorious it is that all of your body systems are functional at this very moment. If you’re alive and reading this post, it’s because your body hasn’t given up on you.

Try this out. Record your results. Comment below what you find. Your body will thank you in return.

“Remember, you have been criticizing yourself for years and it hasn’t worked. Try approving of yourself and see what happens.”

Louise Hay, You Can Heal Your Life

Is Reiki Christian?

Any one of us can learn to do Reiki. We are all made up of energy that ebbs and flows between and around us at all times.

To me, Reiki comes from the Source of healing and strength. It is literally the energy that powers our own bodies, the Life Force lives in the Earth itself and every living thing on it.

To me, Reiki is Christian. It’s the practice of Universal Love.

Reiki was founded by a man who happened to be Buddhist, but the practice itself is not affiliated with any school of thought. It is not a religion; it’s a healing practice.

I happen to be a Christian, but Reiki itself is just the name given to a particular set of energy healing knowledge, passed down through generations. The only “tenets” of Reiki are as follows:

Just for today, I will not worry.
Just for today, I will not be angry.
Just for today, I will do my work honestly.
Just for today, I will give thanks for my many blessings.
Just for today, I will be kind to my neighbour and every living thing.

Whenever I perform a Reiki session on someone, I feel an immense sense of Love for that person and their needs. That Love does not come from me.

I’m just a person, but the power we hold within each of us comes from a higher Power. Whatever your own personal belief system, there is much to learn from the innate Wisdom we all share as part of the human family.

“A healer’s power stems not from any special ability, but from maintaining the courage and awareness to embody and express the universal healing power that every human being naturally possesses.”

Eric Michael Leventhal

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